Friday, December 16, 2011

constant



Flowers wither away.
Paper yellows with age.
Ink fades over time.
Our bodies wither away.
Our hearing lessens with age.
Eyesight fades over time.
Is there any constant?

Yes. Before. Now. Later. Forever.

My hands may be crippled and wrinkled, but still outstretched to you and yours.

You might have to speak up, but the sound of you saying my name still makes me giggle like a school girl.

Come closer and let me look into your beautiful eyes, the eyes that have never changed for as long as I have known you.

Now kiss me as I wrap my arms around your neck.

See, some things never change. Some things are constant.

if I were only as brilliant as William Carlos Williams


I ran after you
threw 4 dollars
into the rose bushes


waiting to see if you came back
I went back outside
to pick them up gently


yet, I pricked my finger
on one beautiful bloom


one thorn
one single blood drop
rolling down my finger


moments later
one single tear drop
rolling down my cheek


the tooth fairy


when I was about 13 or 14

my mom tricked the tooth fairy

into giving her all of my baby teeth

... always having the power of persuasion

I am still not sure how she performed such a difficult feat


she keeps them in a jewelry box

in there are some old coins from Vietnam and Korea

antique turquoise and sterling silver rings from Indian reservations

and a Ziploc bag full of my teeth


some of them still have the dental floss wrapped around them

you could tell which ones brought a little bit more coin from the fairy than others

because the roots are still attached, but the most interesting part

is each and every single one is in the box

in their tiny white and dried blooded innocence


even though, I do not have any children of my own, I do not find this to be strange

in fact, I have plans for these teeth that first taught me to chew and bite

40 years from now when I am a very elderly woman

and my mother passes away peacefully in her sleep

with perfectly painted toe-nails with me right next to her side

I am going to remember these teeth


and when I carry out her wishes and put her cremated ashes

in something quirky like a bamboo urn from Tibet

I will take that Ziploc bag out of my pocket and open it with my arthritic fingers

and slowly pour those teeth in that urn and smile


because I know that in short time someone will carry out my last wishes

and I will join her and be reunited my old baby teeth once again


I bet that old tooth fairy will shake her head and realize

that she didn’t know who she was messing with all those years ago

when she made a deal with a petite stubborn red-headed woman

paper doll


your hands control my perfectly

smooth and perforated little world


my words are your words

my thoughts are your thoughts


I go where you go and no-one else ever has to know


if I have been a good girl

you surprise me with a fashionable hat or dress,

whisper sweet nothings, or even promises of a shiny new tomorrow


but if you suddenly change your mind,

our love can quickly come to a standstill


you see I am merely a commodity, a fantasy,

something to pass the time


cut my hair, poke holes in my eyes,

toss me aside or set my whole body ablaze


for I am just a paper doll

and my dear you are holding

a pair of scissors in one hand

and a lighter in the other